06 July 2014: I Think Of You Every Single Day

For the one I miss the most who I will never be able to see again. No matter how strange, I think of you everyday and I would give anything to have one more moment with you. This song is yours. Love you forever x

My heart feels like it's broken

Like I'm missing a piece of my soul

I feel you watching from above

Each day as I grow old

I feel like you're a part of me

That you would have really cared

Like you felt all my pain

For the three months you were here

 

Oh I want to know you

I just want you in my life

To have you hear all about my day

And have lunch with you on a Sunday

It's moments like these I wish we could share

For now we're apart, but one day I'll join you up there

 

I've heard all the stories

About your redeeming qualities

About your love for fast cars

And your kindness and generosity

Tears well in my eyes as I picture you, in my mind

And as your birthday passes and we celebrate your life

I can't help but wonder, if you were still here, what it would be like.

I can only imagine that you are with me in every way

Filling my life with love, each and every day

 

Oh I want to know you

I just want you in my life

To have you hear all about my day

And have lunch with you on a Sunday

It's moments like these I wish we could share

For now we're apart, but one day I'll join you up there

 

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You're not in my sight but you are in my mind

Photographs are all I'm left with, without them I'm blind.

When the stars align and the skies turn grey

I will finally be able to see you

When heaven takes me away

For now, I pray.

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Oh I want to know you

I just want you in my life

To have you hear all about my day

And have lunch with you on a Sunday

It's moments like these I wish we could share

For now we're apart, but one day I'll join you up there

05 July 2014: You Are Not Alone, I Am With You

Songs that help me through the worst of times. As depressing as they are, they perfectly resemble and let me know that I'm not alone even when I am.
(Lyrics with speech marks represent words that other people have said to or about the person with a mental illness)


When She Cries - Britt Nicole
A home is no place to hide, her heart is aching from the pain that she feels.
Everyday's the same, she fights to find her way. She hurts, she breaks, she cries.
Does anyone ever hear her when she cries?
Everyone's singing but she can't seem to smile. They never get past arms length, how could they act like everything is alright? Pulling down her long sleeves, to cover all the memories the scars leave. She says, "maybe making me bleed, will be the answer that could wash the slate clean."


The Last Night - Skillet
"You come to me with scars on your wrist. You tell me this will be the last night feeling like this."
I just came to say goodbye. Didn't want you to see me cry. I'm fine but I know it's a lie.
"This is the last night you'll spend alone. Look me in the eyes so I know you know. I'm everywhere you want me to be. The last night you'll spend alone. I'll wrap you in my arms and I won't let go. I'm everything you need me to be."

"Your parents say everything is your fault. But they don't know you like I know you, they don't know you at all".
I'm so sick of when they say it's just a phase, you'll be okay, you're fine. But I know it's a lie.

"The night is so long when everything's wrong. If you give me your hand I will help you hold on, tonight."


Would It Matter - Skillet
If I wasn't here tomorrow, would anybody care? If my time was up I'd wanna know, you were happy I was there.
I know I'm a mess and I wanna be someone, someone that I like better.


Why - Rascal Flatts
"It must've been in a place so dark you couldn't feel the light reachin' for you through that stormy cloud. Now here we are gathered in our little hometown, this can't be the way you meant to draw a crowd. Oh, why? That's what I keep askin'. Was there anything I could have said or done? Oh, I had no clue you were masking a troubled soul, God only knows what went wrong. And why you'd leave the stage in the middle of a song."